That Guilty Feeling Again

It's tough being a working mother. Especially when you don't have any support system at home.

It's often tougher on the kid. :(

A was down with fever since Sunday. I couldn't take off; Monday is the only time of the week when I go to office. So there was no choice but to pack him off to his day care. The fever was not too bad either, hence no guilt trip that day.

Tuesday morning he again got up with fever; decided to keep him home. He was quite OK, mild fever through the day; spent the whole day playing. Though he tried his best not to disturb me (He's really growing up :D), it was not bad. Tried to make him sleep in the afternoon; gave up after patting him for fifteen minutes; couldn't waste more than that of my precious working hours. Finally, after much scolding, he slept.

He was OK through out the rest of the day yesterday, as well as this morning. Well, mild fever was there, but... decided to send him to daycare as well as school.

And then he comes back in the evening, all burning and tired and irritated and crying. And I'm on one of those guilt trips again. Shouldn't have sent him off. Should have kept him home. But he wouldn't have let me work :(

Decided not to send him tomorrow. And he was to dress up as Nehru and say a speech too! 15th August celebrations at school... now he's not going to attend that. Hubby's bought an expensive silk Nehru jacket for him... wasted :(

There goes the money minded mother of today! All that it leads to... wastage of money!!! The child is sick!!! Come on!!!